Shinkirou(Mirage)

即兴

2010-08-24T22:25:00.001-07:00

果然！KYH你个万年总受！！！

National Day Celebration 2010

2010-08-08T18:24:00.000-07:00

My summary of National Day Celebration (060810) in School.

Class attendence: 7 people

打油诗就不放了……

抽风

2010-07-31T20:20:00.000-07:00

某同人文里看到的：

“据说如果每天读15分钟的书，命运就会发生变化，我觉得只要看着你就会改变命运的。”

于是大脑很自然地就接了下去：

反抗命运是徒劳的，是没有意义的……

再次郁闷

2010-07-27T00:19:00.000-07:00

此为本人极度郁闷之际原创的不知道该称之为什么的一段文字。
请勿“使用/借用”etc；谢谢。

答应过自己的，再不会流泪
人人都有自己的执著，倦与累
太多的无奈，伴随着每一次心碎
好想放下一切，不再感到伤悲
明明清楚少年不识愁滋味
有何意味
若真是如此，更灰黯的未来
我将如何面对？
只是发觉并非一味的坚强
就能克服一切

好想忘却责任从此
终不再疲惫
却原来幻想中的乌托邦
是现实的累赘
太多的选择遮蔽了晴空
人生的十字路口我好怕会后悔
想要展翅高飞却不记得该如何飞
转头又见来路无归

大家心中都有各自的秘密
能诉与谁？
眼看身边人一一找到航向
自己方向感则仍在沉睡
天真的梦正被现实焚毁
原来，成长，竟也会让人倦怠

RP

2010-07-26T07:06:00.000-07:00

于是，某人RP再度爆发。
突发奇想：
某某言情小说，男主追着女主，追啊追啊~~~
皇天不负苦心人。到手了！
蓦然回首…oops，不小心顺便把整个天下打下来了……
LOLX多半太久没看小说，抽了。

随笔

2010-07-26T07:02:00.000-07:00

每个人，都有着自己的坚持与执着。

感言

2010-07-17T03:33:00.000-07:00

一步步地接近，却发现，愈离愈远。

梦里烟花

2010-05-17T16:08:00.000-07:00

我是个爱做梦的孩子。
为什么？原因，自己也说不上来。
只知道，在梦中，我并不是仅仅拥有或掌控在现实中无法触及的事物。
梦中。
我，便是一切。
明明知道，会被看成是个爱逃避现实的女孩。
但我仍惧怕梦醒时分。
现实……
场场梦后，我可还会适应它？

Upset

2010-05-11T16:06:00.001-07:00

I would dearly love to hide comments like LCT & THL, but my template doesn't allow it.
A shame, I really like this template, so guess I'll just have to improvise ^^
WHY _O_ _E_ _O_ _O_I_ _ _U_E_, _ _E_ _ _E_ _O_'_ _E_ _ _ _E _EA_ T _I_ _I_ _ _ _A_E_?

Random

2010-05-04T05:17:00.000-07:00

You wouldn't know how bad something is without a basis of comparison. Opposite applies.

Midnight Emo-ing

2010-04-21T07:56:00.000-07:00

WARNING: If you cannot stand the “stream of consciousness” style or that likes, I’d suggest you give up now.

Seriously cannot concentrate on anything, and don’t know what is up with myself!
Don’t know myself. I know. Do I?
Guess that, I really am not much of a Science person. There are so many things about self I cannot put a why upon.
Ah-ma(aka XY) once commented that I tended to be out of touch with reality. I suppose. Language is my sanctuary.
One most prominent singular thing that I cannot explain.
Languages entice me. Okay, maybe not all languages. I would not deny I am tone deaf (Hey, what do you expect of someone who had to feel the vibrations of her instrument in order to play the correct note?). So music is out.
But other languages…even those I did not learn…even dialects……
Somehow, in a way of another, I just have this impulse to want to understand them whenever I hear.
Sentient, that in no way am I the best at both languages. But amongst all subjects, I have the most interest in them.
Language, I meant Literature.
No offence to anyone, and contrary to what many may claim, I would not consider GP or its Chinese equivalents as “language”. Not to deny that they do not utilize the subject in mention; just that they focus too much on facts.
Real language, to me at least, is something that one could drown in; ought to be capable of removing the reader from his or her world, into an avatar within the story, to experience all the tension and turmoil, to cry and laugh as they will, in the world of their own.
Yet another sentiment unable to comprehend.
Forgive my terminologies. This individual had never been examined on literature in any form remotely resembling “advance”. Then again, it is more on language that I now type about.
The same rule withstanding for songs.
Tend to focus more on lyrics, than on music.
No matter, “哪个逆风扬鞭/剑指狂沙/百步射落霞”, or be it “婆罗幽梦/落樱葬千夕”.
They never failed to evoke my imagination.
Often tried to imagine, what exactly goes on in others’ minds…how, and what, would their subconscious selves be working, when they were not (or claim so) thinking. So far it had yet not to get my brain tangled up in one huge muddle.
I surmise, never was good at categorizing……
Ha…I’ve typed so much already…never did keep track of this.
Once again, if you cannot follow my stream of consciousness, don’t worry, just ignore what you can’t and take in what you can.
Me and my language fetish.
That will be how much you get to know me.
Or maybe, it’s just because I don’t understand myself.

Time!!!

2010-04-05T23:53:00.000-07:00

There’s so much I want to do, so little time.
Constantly feeling so tired lately, even though compared to most of my classmates, I have frightening little tasks to accomplish…
Hadn’t had the time to write anything on my stories for the past few days…
Worse, now that we are getting back our papers for Blocks 1.
I don’t even want to comment anymore.
I don’t want to give up on these joys of mine, but as the situation is, I fear that I shall have to…TAT……
There’s no time anymore……

My Sancutaries

2010-03-27T00:24:00.000-07:00

As promised :

《四国·后传·琰媛》：
http://novel.hongxiu.com/a/205027/

Genectrols: D-generation:
http://www.worthyofpublishing.com/book.asp?book_ID=7379

Please do R&R!

四国：后传：琰媛

2010-03-12T08:28:00.000-08:00

四国：后传：琰媛

只是第一章
暂时选定“红袖添香”上载，但目前仍在审核当中，所以先把这章发在这里，多少也算预览吧？
目前只码到第三章，还要努力码字呵！
等到审核完毕，再将链接附上^^

章一
圣朝末年，天下四分。浪骸、心锭、月研、美索甘。
而后，浪骸灭美索甘，心锭灭浪骸。月研最终亦成为心锭附属国。
天下统一。
咳！说这么多时代背景干吗？故事可是设在江湖啊！
不过也难说。江湖、朝廷，本就没有明确的分界线。朝廷中的人可以混江湖，江湖草莽当上了皇帝，那就得叫朝廷。
如今江湖“风花雪月”四高手，哪个不是朝野通吃？还不算例名“武林排行榜”之上、“六圣兽”等名人。
当今武林，六大“圣兽”之衔。东青龙、西白虎、南朱雀、北玄武、火凤凰、麒麟儿。
当今天下第一，非四王爷赫兰飞雪莫属。相传他不仅武艺高强，且张罗贤士也很有一套。
当今武林盟主，最神秘，神龙见首不见尾，整天一身黑，甚比魔教。

西域，正午。大道上，一人、一马。
少年约摸十四、五岁，有着墨绿泛青的长发，刘海几乎遮住了他的右眼。其余的头发被随意地束在脑后。
凌乱，在他身上却有着说不出的潇洒。
少年胯下那匹金毛乌鬃的马儿，似是耐不住那滚滚热浪，不耐烦地甩着其黑亮的长鬃，嘶鸣着。
似是理解了坐骑般，少年开始寻觅驿站。

“表…表姐，你确定这样走，不会出事？已经有好多人转头在看了……”
“哼！管他们的！要本小姐我女扮男装？别说门，窗都没有！”
“哎！”闻人妮忍不住在她们今日启程后第N次叹气。她这表姐怎么就这么没有警觉性呢？本身长得漂亮就不说了，都是爹妈给的。可你干吗衣着华丽，骑着一匹绝世罕见的白龙驹来“闯江湖”啊！想被打劫也用不着拖她下水啊！
嗨，归根结底，还是要怪二表哥，把妹妹看得太好了。
只要敢乱动这小表姐一根寒毛，以往的经验告诉她，那人绝对会被二表哥扁得…是人类都认不出。
也只能说，二表哥实在太强了。在他最辉煌的时期，四国、江湖都有他的人。
只要他有那个意愿，一声令下，整个天下便是他的。
即便是现在，她也很确定，二表哥有足够的势力；随他的意愿掀起一阵腥风血雨那是小菜一碟。
这也是为什么当这位小表姐琰媛来找上她，说要“离家出走”时，她立刻放下手中的活儿来陪她。
丢下工作不做，二表哥固然会生气。
若让二表哥知道琰媛来找过她，而后出走有什么三长两短；或者琰媛向二表哥告她的状……
呜！她才十岁啊！还不想死无全尸啊！
所以…唉…她怎么就这么命苦呐！

“气死了气死了气死了！赫兰飞雪，你等着瞧吧！”哼，敢在本小姐和哥哥亲热得干柴烈火（咳，小妹，用错词了…）时把我扔到花丛中（飞雪：没把你丢进仙人掌丛已经很好了>哥哥也真是的！呜！摔得好痛！他都不来安慰我一下！
灭哈哈哈！我这一出走，呼！赫兰飞雪你死定了！

“小二，给间上房！”接连几天的奔波，终于可以歇脚了。
下面，该去哪里呢？他恍惚。
自那场浩劫后，他便和师傅相依为命。
然后，大概四年前，隐匿已久的南朱雀重出江湖。
听到这个消息，平日里波澜不惊的师傅显露出异常的兴奋。
真与南朱雀会面，他才惊觉，师傅有一个一直想找的人。南朱雀焰丹朱知道那人的下落。
与焰丹朱一战后，师傅给他说了好多莫名其妙的话；留下，一个决绝的背影。
师傅的身影，孤寂…沧桑。他直觉，今后不会再见到他。
而后，走南闯北，漫无目的。
随手一推窗，他被两个少女的身形吸引。她们，太引人注目了。
较年长的那个女孩，一头暗红色的柔顺长发，缀以华美的赤玉饰品。
粗略一看，他苍尨便可肯定，仅她头上的饰品，便足抵他一年的生活费用！
这还不算她那身高贵的，一看就知是宫廷贵族装的长衣裙；以及她胯下那匹不掺一根杂毛的白龙驹，那全套紫檀木缕金马具……
还有她身边的那个女孩，也“好”不到哪里去。是她丫鬟吧？（闻人妮：*怒*是表妹啦！表妹！）
虽说衣着比她家小姐朴素，骑的马也没那么显眼，但…天！她那一头金饰银钗，镫亮的马具，都是劫匪最好的对象！
不见身边有什么侍卫…孤身两人，中原人打扮，能这样走这么远，应该也有一定的来头罢？
不过…咳！自己想这么多干吗？手头上还有没干完的事呢！

这次的对象…司徒。
司徒，姓司名徒。塔雁门副掌门。
塔雁门，黑白两道通吃。有独门绝招塔雁棍法。前掌门正是以此功重伤一时称霸江湖的南朱雀。
也有称，此门曾属美索甘王族所有，在美索甘灭国后，以毒辣的手法在江湖中蔓延势力。
他一点也不意外。
众所周知，世上最黑的，不是白道；最残忍的，非黑道；皆是宫廷。
唉，谁让这塔雁门如此嚣张？这司徒先是惹上武林盟主的宝贝女儿，又染上了黑道几大教之一——拜火教的教主。（读者乱如：耽美？BL？作者：*Pia飞*女的就不能当教主？）
这下好了，黑白两道联手诛之，通缉令充斥江湖。
说实话，苍尨没有信心，自己打得过那司徒。
只是，那丰厚的悬赏金…诱惑啊诱惑！
说实在，要真打不过，他也不会去打。管它什么江湖正义！小命要紧。
话说回来，实在不行，还可以向刚才那两个女孩“借”点配饰什么的，今年生活费也有着落了。

京城，四王爷雪樊王王府。
“什么？！你们是怎么在当影卫的？居然把她看丢了？！”一橙发赤眸的大美人怒气冲冲地对着一群…呃…隐身在房梁屋顶柜角墙根总之所有阴暗处的影卫…那个…以唇语怒斥之。
但他身上所散发出的阵阵戾气，绝对不是闹着玩的。
“夜魑呢？妹妹的安全可是他负责的！”不过，正所谓美人生起气来也别有一番风情。自家主上如此一妖魅美人的表情剧变，不由得让属下的几个小影卫心神荡漾。
“回主上，夜魑大人已死于那次突袭。突袭让我队人员折损惨重，亦让我等与琰媛小姐走散。”呜！主上好漂亮。脸蛮圆的，配以剑眉凤目，再加上是很像女孩子的鼻唇…啧，好想调戏…口水啊……
“彤…丹朱，别迁怒于他们啊；他们也是尽力了。”谢谢王爷！不过要是让王爷知道我等对主上之心…呃！怕不仅仅是死那么简单了！
“还不是你，那天……”
“不是已经派人在找了么？彤，媛都十二了…差不多该放手了……”
“说得简单…唔！……”

“表姐…那个…你身上还有多少…盘缠？”
“想让我当掉配饰？告诉你，我这赤玉头饰可是一套！要当，就先当你的吧！”
“表姐，我已经当掉好多配饰了！”没办法，琰媛出门总有影卫盯着。
“那你看看，我身上哪样不是哥哥或飞雪哥哥给的，就当掉它好了。”狡猾！你身上哪有一样不是？不过说真的，今天怎么感觉怪怪的？
“表姐，你…确定…这是回京城的路？”
“应该吧…有问题？”
“前方…貌似没有人烟。”
“废话……对了，妮，你知不知道，去年那个时候哥哥来找我，我真的好……”
“太阳快下山了…我看我们不如倒回刚才的那驿站……”
“…嗯？你刚才说了什么？”忙着说话，没听到
“……”算了，这辈子你要学会你哥的惜字如金，估计是不可能。

太巧了！苍尨实在想仰头大笑…若非顾及自己的帅哥形象。
那司徒…好死不死…正好下榻这所驿站！
先观察，再行动，向来是他的习惯性行动模式。
正欣喜之际，走廊上喧哗大起。

她怎么也想不通，
上次那个轻薄她的人，她不过不小心多用了点力，一记手刀就把他拍晕了。
可眼前这个大块头，任凭她使尽全力，砍得双掌通红，也挣不开。
小妮！救命！

表姐，不是我不想救你…只是…哈……
没看见人家被卡着脖子就快窒息了吗？！
我说这人也真够奇怪的。你劫财还是劫色还是两样都要还是两样都不要……
麻烦你先说清楚好伐！
不要一脸色迷迷的手上却一个劲地把我们两往死里掐！
奇怪！平时包括之前都挺管用的暗卫，跑哪里去了？

电光石火间，那司徒却是两眼一翻，直直地倒了下去。
踏破铁鞋无觅处，得来全不费功夫。
果不其然。“色”字头上一把刀，恒古不变的道理。
苍尨爽快地一拍手。十万两白花花的银子啊！到手了！
次日，将半废了的司徒交给官府，领了自己的生活费，苍尨又见到了那两个身影。
哇塞！昨天的经历还不够啊！居然依旧此般招摇！
如此近看二人（之前驿站时已入黄昏，光线昏暗），苍尨有些呆掉了。
大一点的那个女孩，可真谓美人胚子！
过份精致的五官——弧度恰到好处的柳眉，水灵灵的杏眼，小巧俏皮的鼻子下面长着一张樱桃小嘴。她的皮肤说不上白皙，却是无比细腻。圆圆的小脸，煞是可爱…只是…
这张脸的表情，明显昭示着她是个被宠坏了的大家小姐。
打死他也不会给这种人做事！
一抬头，只见一双棕色的大眼睛，一眨一眨的。
“妈啊！”吓死他了！
“那个，真的好巧啊！谢谢你昨日救了我们。我是薛媛。这位是我妹妹妮。”唉，谁叫哥哥坚持我闯江湖时得用化名呢？…不知哥哥可好？
“昨日见笑了。请问阁下……”
“苍尨。”他不应该回答的啊！
所幸，那女孩也没有缠着他的意思。
“妮！快点！听说从这里赶往京城要很久呢！”还好，还好…等等……
“喂，那不是往京城的路啊！”他也不知道为什么会突然这么八卦…大概是不愿见到美女落难吧？

“吓，不是啊…那这条呢？”汗。
“也错了啊！这条？”狂汗。
……
“这条？”太平洋汗。
“这条？”史前海洋汗。
“算了…那个，这位少侠，您可否费一下心，护送我和姐姐回京？”赶快装楚楚可怜状。
“抱歉，不方便！”斩钉截铁。
“报酬不会少。就…四百两吧。”
四百两纹银？护送这样两个千金大小姐，应该“麻烦”不会太多…再说京城，商机也不少…这个价钱，可以考虑……
“四百两纹银吧？”
“黄金！”
“成交！”
就这样，四百两黄金，改变了他苍尨的一生。

Sighs

2010-02-21T03:32:00.000-08:00

最近做什么都提不起兴致。
拿起笔，想画画，有Art Block，想写什么，没灵感……
正在观察面前距离~50cm墙壁上的一只壁虎……

最近，就一死气沉沉的气氛。什么都不想做。

I fear loneliness, yet I seek solace in solitude.

动漫没时间看……
小说？喜欢的那类：TSNS, NSNX, MGMS……基本已经看了个遍。
同人？KA、犬杀、佐鼬、妙鱼、13/6、SG…还有电视剧/小说的丁竹、鼠猫、靖康等等等等，没办法，谁叫我稀饭的不是冷门，便是比较有名的作品都给看了个遍……

为什么为什么为什么？？？！！！
看《雪山》我粗略一翻故事情节基本上记得，生物化学数学为什么就没法这样？？？！！！

反正，我也不知道自己是吃错了什么药还是怎么的……
Genectrols: D-generation 我依然在写，不过改址了：
http://www.worthyofpublishing.com/book.asp?book_ID=7379

还有什么呢？……
啊，对，那份报告。
《四国·后传·琰媛》已经过半，不过估计会坑……
是BG言情来的。清水。
那个……就写到这里吧……

Genectrols: D-generation [Phase 5]

2009-12-25T19:16:00.001-08:00

Genectrols: D-generation [Phase 5]

“Do they, not fear loosing?” His head pounding, Night Canyon, let it be his name for now, nevertheless found himself uncomfortably in his unit, readying for action.
Once again, the usual routine. Fire, slash, dodge.
Then, without himself even realizing it, Night Canyon blacked out.

Erra, central planet, Palace.
"So why did you guys come Erra?"
"To carry a warning; and in part, to flee, I guess?" Leonda seemed nonchalent.
Jeriko was the one who ultimately brought them to the crucial idea. "The ruler of Yuva just died."
"What the! How?"
"We don't know, Kelar."
Yuva, long known as the lonely planet.
Despite having opened up significantly to the rest of the world since A.F. 938, much of the planet remains shrouded in mystery.

Before A.F. 938, Yuva existed as 5 Kingdoms.
A.F. 938, almost the entire royal family of the Indigo Kingdom died mysteriously. No one found out the cause.
The banished prince, Tequr, returned to claim the throne. It was he who united all 5 kingdoms under one nation. The former Kingdoms became provinces. The fate of their respective ruling families remained a story unknown.
That was the height of Yuva. Tequr initiated trade between Yuva and the other 9 planets.
Once it started to open up, it’s development soared in all aspects.
Somewhere near the end of A.F. 939, brother of Tequr, the only other survivor from the royal family, took to the throne.
Desmon, current, or rather, late king of Yuva.
In spite of Tequr’s doom being unannounced, one cannot deny Desmon’s talent at leadership.
Within one decade, Yuva closed in on Erra in terms of infrastructure.

“It’s a shame, that King Desmon has no heir. Now that he’d passed on, the whole planet was thrown into chaos. From our latest knowledge, it was a very distant cousin who took up the post.” Small wonder, for all the closer relatives are apparently non-existing.
“How did he die? Was there no will?”
“Yuva authorities claimed that it was a freak accident. Afterwards the planet closed its doors to the outside world. We could get no more information.”
“Aunt Leera and Uncle Conda feared that trouble was brewing. That was why we were sent here to warn you all.”
“Jeriko and I will be staying on Erra for awhile. Aunt Syvanna and Uncle Lanse know already. Afterwards we might need to set off for Isli and Gaia. Pending orders from Tahale.”

His cockpit was dark, unnaturally silent, as Night Canyon came to his senses.
A chilling soundlessness, one he is unaccustomed to.
Reality hit him. He is lost. Left behind in the endless vacuum known as space.
He is finally free. Yet despite so, he felt no joy.
Rather, filling his heart was fear. The energy level of his unit is running out. So is the oxygen level.
Does freedom truly spell his doom?

Elsewhere, Helluw Vena.
“Genectrols, the game has only begun.”
Iron hard words, enclosed in velvety tones.

口音

2009-12-19T19:43:00.000-08:00

暴笑！
前两天无意中浏览到这个网页
http://tanbifever.blogbus.com/logs/35508474.html
请注意下面“梳头”一图的台词

孙策：余杭口音[好亲切的说]
周瑜：安徽口音LOLX

然后当看到吕布和蒙古话时，我彻底抽掉了……
*某X到现在还在笑*

PS：我一直觉得鲁肃的语言能力不错……

Genectrols: D-generation [Phase 4]

2009-12-14T17:51:00.000-08:00

[Phase 4]

“Have you heard of the codenames Artemis CXIV and Apollo CCVI?”
“Of course! The twins, the Sun and the Moon. As a pair, their coordination, be it for A.U. or elementary battles (battles using elements they control), is known to be legendary. But what about them?... Is the other pilot’s ‘original’ or something a relation of theirs?”
“Accurate as usual, Asuna. Now, the twins’ real names are Arellia and Aekr Taruk. This Kranyon Taruk, he is their younger brother. He was officially announced to be dead 18 years ago. Gas poisoning. His body subsequently went missing. Only 3 years later was it recovered from an abandoned capsule in the Apocalypse Debris belt near Helluw. No one had any idea what happened.”
“Jeriko, are you telling the truth and nothing but the truth? Because what you just said sounded a little too detailed…”Trailing off, Leonda left his question unfinished.
“Don’t sound so bewildered. And you too, Kelar, Don’t look so incredulous. Kranyon Taruk’s body was neither the first nor only to have disappeared from morgues throughout the world. There was information indicating that an organization based near Helluw was behind all these, and nearly everyone was concerned. In the end Helluw agreed to undertake this task. It followed-up until when I was eight, between which I had plenty of time to gain knowledge on the details of the whole thing.”

“So…what happened…afterwards?”
“When I was eight, we discovered the base of the organization, on a tiny “moon” we had no previous knowledge of. A special force was sent to destroy it. They totally blasted the whole moon in a surprise attack. We thought we had destroyed the whole commanding force of the organization, as our intelligence report told us. The entire operation was kept under cover, so naturally none of you will know anything about it…we only realized our mistake 7 years later……The rest, you should know, is history.”

February A.F. 958, the organization aforementioned secretly moved forces towards Helluw Vena. It was only realized later that a few of the highest positions managed to escape the attack, and set their new base on Yuva Scarlet Province.
July A.F. 958, all forces of the organization network established contact. A series of surprise attacks caught Helluw authorities unaware.
October A.F. 958, forces of the organization had control over the entire Helluw Vena. That very same month, the special craft which King of Helluw, Luc Okiyo took to Ducan went up in flames. Investigators claim it was fire from Helluw Vena.
November A.F. 958, Helluw Vena forces advanced towards Helluw Aorta, a grave mistake. They had underestimated the ability of the Queen. Kia Amzulagtas-Okiyo managed to secure Helluw Aorta with what forces she had, creating the current status of Helluw—two regions, ready to wage war upon one another upon sight of a single spark.
Though in no more of a danger than his mother, Prince Jeriko Okiyo, the immediate heir, was nevertheless sent away to ensure safety from Helluw’s current turbulent situation. Ultimately it was decided he be sent under Tahale’s care.

“I’m so sorry, Jeriko……” It was at times such as these that Asuna does not welcome her surprisingly accurate intuition.
“Don’t be. It’s alright, what happened was not Erra of Tahale’s fault. Helluw took up the task of investigation, and by doing so ought to be prepared for any backlash. If there is any planet to blame, it would be Yuva, and no one else. I’m bound to recall the whole episode whenever anyone mentions it. I’d rather that anyone be you guy, period.”

The aquamarine-haired boy groaned. His head hurt.
There were punishments for failed missions. He was just grateful that the one he received was not physical. Rather, it was psychological.
He could not remember the details. Just that the whole experience brought out a deep, hidden fear in him that he never knew existed, and that his head felt like a nuclear bomb about to go off.

The door opened again.
No! He cannot possibly go to battle in his current condition!

作文2

2009-12-13T18:57:00.000-08:00

OK, being random again...
This is my 作文for one of the term tests.
um...enjoy?

《面具》

凉飕飕的风从车内的空调吹出，直拂我的面门。好不惬意。
车外，炎炎夏日正焚灼着路面。

似是习惯性地看着交通灯不停地变色。
红；刹车。绿；油门。
自己这个星期来，一直期盼望着今天的到来。
星期日的下午。高中同学聚会。

约定好的地点出现在了眼前，我心中的忧虑感却徒然增加。

虽说这些年来我一直与一些要好的同学保持联络，未曾断过，但却也一直找不到机会和他们见面。
光阴荏苒，十年已过。
对于当年的一切，他们，又会记得什么，记得多少？

忙大学，忙事业，甚至，我怀疑，对于昔日同学的名字，他们还记得多少？

一步步，缓缓踏入酒楼的大厅。
华丽的装潢，价值不菲的饰品随处可见。
对呀，这毕竟是这座城市最高级的酒店。可是，它却又是那般冰冷，无机*。
好像吃人不吐骨的商场那般，无情。
我宁可，回到当年那充满温馨阳光的操场。骄阳烈日又有何妨？
起码，一切是如此朴素、单纯。

包厢，门一关，便可与外世隔绝。
但除不去的，却是大家心中早已根深蒂固的隔阂与顾忌。

我们都戴上了面具，再也取不下、除不去的面具。

“萤，最近怎么样啊？”
“还不错，我老公最近刚升职，我们马上就要……”
再也走不进他们的世界。

“佳，恭喜你……”
“哪里、哪里。只是上次你托我的事，我家里有些事，有些不方便……”
学会了找借口，学会了隐晦、推托。

飞变得比以前强韧了好多，不会再像当年那般容易被他人的无意或恶意的玩笑中伤。
或者，她不过是不再表现出自己被伤害罢了。

囹和琳，我知道他们的婚姻生活其实并不如此圆满。
可现在的他们，全然是你侬我侬，沉浸在二人世界中。
不知情者羡慕不已，在我眼中却更像是逢场作戏。

大家都已学会了把自己的不好藏起，只将自己的幸福搬上台面。
而成就实在太少的同学呢？干脆就不来了。

我自己，又何尝未变？
对自己的收入只字不提；还未婚，一提到婚姻就转移话题。
事事出口需经三思，字字一而再、再而三地掂量。
就生怕被卷入“攀比战”中去。

成人世界，需要我们戴上面具去面对；不再把心情写在脸上，这是成长的代价。
梦想的幻灭，少年事那曾经的宏愿大志被现实无情地粉碎。
我们学会了自私。

曾经的那个“永远的朋友（Friends Forever）”的约定现今又在何方？
也对啊！承诺，又有几分重？

回家的途中。
车，依旧是那辆车。路，依旧是那条路。
我，仍是我。
只是，心中难免有些失落。
预料到是一回事，真正去面对它却又是另一回事。

满星闪烁的夜空，挥不去我心头似有似无的阴霾。
曾经那个在走廊上喧哗奔走，曾经的那个与好友畅谈心事的日子，回不去了……

劝君莫惜金缕衣，劝君惜取少年时。太对了。
长大的面具一旦戴上，就再也取不下来。

青春一去，永不重逢。

SPH internship

2009-12-12T18:36:00.000-08:00

week 1 summary 2 of 2:
NOTE: 一般头一天翻译的稿，第二天才出版。就比如列为Day 2 的文件，是Day 3 才见报。当然，也有可能是要等两、三天才见报的 ><

Day4 : Off day
Day 5 (4-12-2009):
尼泊尔内阁开“峰会”
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091205_001.shtml
全球近九成民众支持　　采取行动遏止气候变暖
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091205_008.shtml

没时间加细节了（天音：你那叫懒），暂时就这样吧……

Day 6 (5-12-2009):
俄罗斯夜店大火 109人死130人伤
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091206_014.shtml
妇女食用豆制品　　降低患两种癌症风险
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091208_019.shtml
记得翻译俄罗斯大火的那一篇，是给我两份稿，叫我综合。本来以为综合好了写出来了交给编辑了就没事了，哪知道过了几分钟死亡人数上升、当地政府又有了新的动向，于是又要改！结果呢，就这样反反复复了好几次，直到晚上快要交稿的时候（天音：此人分明是在为自己的低产率找借口><）

Day 7: Rest day

Week 2:
Day 8 (7-12-2009):
美国要把二氧化碳列为「对公众有威胁」污染物 http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091208_003.shtml
欧盟将资助发展中国家应对气候变化
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091208_008.shtml
委瑞内拉罪案　　两成是警察所干
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091208_014.shtml
鸠山政府支持率首次跌破六成
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091208_017.shtml
工作量加大了。一个字：爽！

Day 9 (8-12-2009):
航天飞机亮相 20万美元带你飞太空
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091209_002.shtml
非洲开发银行行长：解决气候变化问题富国每年应多给非洲500亿元 http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091209_006.shtml

Day 10 (9-12-2009):
世界气象组织：本世纪首10年气候史上最热
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091210_004.shtml
巨型冰山漂向澳洲面积达香港岛两倍
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091210_010.shtml
医药专家：无证据显示达菲能预防流感并发症
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091212_008.shtml

Day 9 和 Day 10 因为版面较少，所以只有两篇稿可以做…其它时间就在练习…（基本上是在slack）
Day 10 的头两篇编辑需要改的已经蛮少了…这种欢喜的心情真非笔墨可以形容啊啊啊！！！^^
但很遗憾，Day 10 的最后一篇，需要改好多额…改得我都认不出来了*笑*

Day 11: Off Day

Day 12 (11-12-2009):
伊朗把诺贝尔和平奖座归还给人权女律师
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091212_004.shtml
美考虑禁驾车时发手机简讯
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091212_007.shtml
今后三年欧盟每年将拨49亿元帮助穷国应付气候变化
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091212_011.shtml
小岛国联盟恫言不接受忽视其生存气候协议
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091212_012.shtml
科学家：海水吸收过多二氧化碳后水质变酸
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091212_013.shtml
这天版面多（两版），人手少（据发给我的email，包括我，就3-4 人），结果嘛，就套用一位前辈的话：把“你”（我）当全职员工在用……LOLX
不过，一天能编译这么多（对我来说已经不少了），还是很满足（觉得再这么下去，我有发展成工作狂的危险）XP

SPH internship summary week 1

2009-12-06T17:26:00.000-08:00

某X在SPH (Singapore Press Holdings) internship的第一个星期总结 Part 1 of 2：

Day 1 (30-11-2009):
做了一天的乌鸦（黑衣[with silver stripes]、黑裙、黑鞋），直接导致当天晚上差点搭不到德士，偏偏当天带的外套也是那件黑的pullover>< 本来以为朝九晚五，差不多五、六点就能下班…哪知道我的工作时间是从2pm 到11.30pm，天天12mn到家（绝对准点）听MF说她们当天的任务是把报纸从头到脚细看一遍，然后待命…我以为自己也一样，可以翘脚。哪知道我被分派到的那个组效率出奇的高…初来乍到马上替我把电脑、户头等设好，立刻开工。（不过我也没有异议LOL）第一天翻译了三篇报道，可惜水平不够，未能见报>.< 听XY和DS说，他们两被“晾”在那里，还没开始实质性的工作。不过我这个组的各位前辈真的很不错，都很照顾我这个实习生^^ 真的要谢谢那位帮我招到德士的前辈，否则我将面临回不了家的困境……

Day 2 (1-12-2009):
领会到了昨天的教训，穿了一件紫色的上衣，白色的裙子。当天上午才买的。没办法，头一天已经被告知我被分配到的那个组因为鲜少会出去，所以周日（weekdays）期间是“3不”主义：不能穿牛仔裤、不允许穿T-shirt、不应该穿运动鞋>< 当天的翻译是龟速，整个下午才两篇，但（自觉）有些进步。最起码，两篇都拿得出去见报，虽然还是要麻烦编辑（而且还是“不少”麻烦）XP 翻译的两篇如下：
http://www.zaobao.com/yx/yx091202_014.shtml
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091202_012.shtml

Day 3 (2-12-2009):
破天荒地穿了一件粉红色的连衣裙（PINK DRESS）去，把XY，MF还有（大概吧）DS shock 到><
这天MS没太多工作范围外的精彩内容。又是蜗牛速度翻译了两篇；两篇都刊登了。
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091203_010.shtml
http://www.zaobao.com/gj/gj091203_005.shtml
觉得袭警的那篇会比较好一些，被编辑修改的部分比较少。、
而第二篇（伊朗的那篇）不太理想，有太多处需要劳驾编辑 x_x

TBC...

小感叹

2009-11-29T05:57:00.000-08:00

夜深人静，突发奇想，就让我在此感叹一下吧！
头悬梁，锥刺股，说白了就是古人的self-mutilation
正所谓天下文章一大抄，文坛是世界大同的预兆（"to be or not to be" vs "to劈or not to劈"是经典）
最可怕的，不是死亡，而是永无止境的寂寞
最不好受的，往往是那个被遗留下来的人
追逐着，却不知道目标在何方，才是最迷惘的
两个不同世界的人，若一方想要靠近另一方，注定是多情被无情伤
曾经，只会随着感情，愈飘愈远
不明白，最无奈
历史，是让人来郁闷的
在资深（骨灰级）TRN/FN/TRL的眼中，雄性只能被分为四个等级
我常常不知道自己在打些什么，包括这一句话……

Girls' Day out

2009-11-27T04:33:00.001-08:00

Was out yesterday with XY, HL & Char for a farmaly-五缺一 outing.
年少，轻狂。
Met up at AMK Hub at ~10.45am, starting off the day^^

Sad to say, at first it was really 冷场...couldn't really remember when did we start to get high...I guess temperature rise is something gradual X_X

Anyway, half-way through, XY & I started 疯狂反串彪歌ing。
There wasn't much of a choice anyway, since my favourite songs by female artists are basically non-existent in the song list ToT

我个人是比较心水古风歌曲：
心然的歌基本上都很爱；记得当处接触《子陵·周郎顾》的一个游戏mv，我口水那个飞流直下三千尺啊！
然后还有墨名棋妙的《且试天下》（XY介绍的；还真得谢谢她）
艾草的《醉花容》
吴琼的《故人叹》
甚至，比较“流行音乐型”的，卓文宣的《长衣袖》都米有啊啊啊！！！

As for English songs, NONE of Within Temptations...seriously, for the title "Angels", there were not less than 5, and not one is the one I wanted ><
Not only is there no Within Temptations songs, I couldn't find any song by Krypteria too x_x
Nor was there "If You Still Believe" by Elsa Raven ToT......

郁闷。

It appears that XY's taste of music is close to mine, at least in the aspect of Chinese Songs...
like 《天下》by 张杰
《稻草人》by 林志颖
《诀别诗》by 胡彦斌
we had wanted to sing 《潇湘雨》by （套用XY的话）某个长相实在抱歉但确实油菜花的歌手；a pity there were only other versions avaliable.

...while HL's & Char's are similar, EXCEPT
HL! Never realised that you were this kind of person o_O!
LG songs! XP

果然，人，不可貌相。

Finally, towards the end, we managed to grasp the idea that to get high you've got to get some EXTREMELY high songs.
the results?
《第一天》、《Super Star》、《恋爱ing》and a couple of other songs I can't name......
Cause: high songs
Effect: us jumping about on the sofas...even the supposedly年老不宜剧烈运动的ah ma(XY) joined in the fray.

PS: The Hainaese Chicken Rice Tasted very good (ah ma, let me guess, 你又幸福得像上了天堂了吧？*Sighs* the knack for [cooked]chicken)

Ending our Kbox session, we went for the movie.
"A Christmas Carol", in 3D
The movie was quite fuzzy at certain intervals...I suppose it's technical problem......
Nice effects, I especially like it when Scrooge was flying about with the ghost of the Christmas past (anyone who read the novel should have an idea what I'm saying ^^), which combined with the 3D effects, gave me the feeling of flying around in a cockpit of something*squeals*....... (Forgive this fangirl, acting all hyped-up)
That reminds me...before the movie, we passed by the arcade by the cinemas.
Guess what...they recently added these GUNDAM COCKPIT STIMULATORS!!!!!!!!!
**** ROX!!!!!!!!!*screams, asphyxiates and faints of excitment*
Didn't try out, cos
1)I seriously don't know how to play one X_X
2)It's really ex.; S$5 per play x_x

Guess I shouldn't talk anymore about the movie...since most people don't really like spoilers......
But before I end...
I WANT TO WATCH AVATAR!!!

To end the day off, we went Hendersons' for Ice cream.
We ordered some "package" with 5 scoops, so each of us chose a favour and XY helped us choose the final favour.
MF, we miss you.
In the end, the different favours got so mixed up we didn't know which is whose...LOLX
BTW, I ordered rum and raisins...and it tasted as if there were real alcohol inside.
Alcohol...Underaged...you get the idea*haha......*

Well, that was basically it, for our Farmaly-Day-Out^^
MF, don't you regret not joining us? LOLX
XY&HL, do add on in your blogs^^

Genectrols: D-generation [Phase 3]

2009-11-25T06:16:00.000-08:00

Yeah, I know this chapter is quite short......
A little short of time and ideas...so please just bear with me ><
The next chapter ought to be much longer...LOLX

Genectrols: D-generation [Phase 3]

“Asuna…maybe you want to ask Jeriko about it once we land?” He knew that was a redundant sentence; he just wanted to break that suffocating silence.
“Yeah…duh…Kelar! You read my thoughts AGAIN?!”
“Hey, we’re twins, what do you expect?”
“But seriously, what happened to many years ago?”
“Who knows…history itself was never complete……”
Silence once again reigned, as their trip back to Erra was muted once again……

For the first time ever in his existence, he felt…trapped.
A word so alien, he never knew how to savor.
Even after his first trip into the endless space, he never felt such a sense of…confinement.
It was just…this time…something set the trigger.
He wanted…Escape.

Erra, Central Planet, Palace.
As it had decades before, the majestic building shone in full glory, towers rising to overlook the landscape, as if the years never had any effect on it.
The guardian of Erra.
In one of the living quarters, four figures stood, staring out into the morose skies of this artificial planet.
“Clones, no? First it’s Genectrols; now that people finally start to accept us, there’s clones.” It was the dark-skinned boy with chocolate hair that first exclaimed.
A.F. 920, Helluw started the project on creating supernatural humans, with enhance hearing, sight and reflexes.
A.F 924 circa, the first of these “enhanced humans” was produced. Genectrols, they were called, characterized by the slightly pointed ear tips.
Helluw subsequently carried on with the project, genetically altering more and more zygotes, turning them into powerful biological weapons.
Eventually, A.F. 925, the facilities were destroyed, and the project halted.
A.F. 940, official end of the Universal War. Only 4 known individuals survived. Four mistakes that Helluw made.

Lanse Josa and Syvanna Vanda-Josa, now Emperor and Empress of Erra, parents to Kelar and Asuna.
Conda Susaka and Leera Josa-Susaka, King and Queen of Tahale, parents to Leonda.

“I cannot be sure if it were as simple as a cloning project, or is there more to it.” Death Saint, otherwise Jeriko Okiyo, was the name of the navy-haired male. Being the oldest amongst the group at a grand old age of 17, he knew much more about the past than the others.
Or perhaps, the unwillingness of the citizens of Helluw to talk about the past only ignited his interests in this forbidden field.
Humans had always been curious life forms, genetically modified or not.

“Kranyon Taruk…that’s a long story. I suppose we’d better start from the beginning……”
Finally, Jeriko started answering to the twins’ enquiries.

作文

2009-11-21T21:31:00.000-08:00

年初写的一篇作文；不知道怎么地，今天突然想起了它，所以就码上来了^^
得分不是很高，因为本来要我们写抒情我却写成了小说，但觉得情节自己喜欢，所以嘛……

皇族之间的斗争，犹为残忍。出生皇家，虽有锦衣玉食，却也是一种悲哀。

雨中感怀

秋风萧飒，秋雨凄凉……

马上，就要入冬了吧？看着满院的萧条，他疑惑。自己，不知到底撑过了多少个这样的春秋呢？
很久以前，听母后说，自己也出生在这样的时节；那已是太久以前。
不禁回想起过去，却又不愿去回忆。不敢。
他怕，无法承受；怕，一旦看清过去，自己会崩溃。

他隐约地知道，自己的童年中，曾经有过那么一个冬天，自己无忧无虑地在溢着浓郁香气的梅花雨中玩耍。
只是，不平凡的出身，意味着这种天真，不可能持续到永远。
出身东宫的二皇子，当朝皇后的长子。他被告知，自己注定要成为太子、帝王。

然后，是那个春天。
他亲眼看着母后被押入冷宫。
家族势力被拔除；她，成为了废后。他唯一的哥哥，被立为太子。
初春，寒风刺骨，细雨飘零。
母后的眼泪。一滴，一滴，洒落；或许，是为自己成为政治的牺牲品而感到悲哀吧？他不晓得。
他只知道，那是自己第一次感觉到了恐惧。
潜意识中，意识到，母后，或许不能再像过去那样保护自己了。
周围的人，对他们母子突然地冷淡了起来。原本对他们言听计从的人，现在却是尽给他们白眼。
六岁，他尝到了从云端跌到谷底的滋味。

还有，那个夏天，皇族的孩子们常在一起戏耍。
不论什么游戏，他从来没有输过，亦从未成为赢家。
他已太清楚，身为皇子，过早地锋芒毕露，只会成为众矢之的，招来杀身之祸；然而他输不起。在母后被废黜后的那些年中，十二岁的他，早已长大，已懂得掩饰。
只有这样，才能保全自己与母亲的性命。

终究，还是枉然。太子的母亲以恶毒的手段杀害了父皇当时最宠爱的妃子后，嫁祸于那个曾经的皇后。
狂风雷暴，大雨倾盆。
闪电划破长空之际，他目睹了不堪重刑折磨的母后，饮下了那杯鸩酒。
没有流泪；心，却在淌血。那一秒，他学会了恨，亦学会了残忍。

悲戚瑟秋，他借一次围猎，亲手射杀了太子，他那温柔儒雅的哥哥，只为夺得太子之位。
权位，他不稀罕；但他想要活下去！他知道，若自己不先下手，那么太子的母亲必然会将自己逼上绝路。
于是他顺带地将那女人卡死，作为自己的生日礼物。
深宫中，栽赃，轻而易举。

朦胧秋雨之中，面对父皇斥责的目光，他不以为意。在母后逝去的那一夜，仇恨已蒙蔽了他的双眼。

漫天飞雪的寒冬，他杀父、弑君、夺权，只因他得到情报，父皇将另立太子。
赌注太大，他输不起。所以，宁可错过，不可放过。
他从没后悔过自己的决定…吗？
他并不在乎得到天下。甚至，他不喜欢这个天下。
只是，出生皇家，意味着不登上帝位，便只有死路一条！

十六岁那年，他登基。因利益关系，他娶了宰相之女为皇后。
而后，对于自己的兄弟，甚至一些姐妹，不是满门抄斩，便是全家流放；拔除朝中重臣的势力，废黜皇后。
残暴，和父皇的所作所为很像；他知道，却不以为然。
心，早已麻痹。

只是，不同于自己的父亲，纵然嫔妃、子女无数，他却从来没有爱过任何人。
不是不会爱，而是不敢爱。儿时的一切，让他不由得担心，无法保护好自己最爱的人。
不把心交出去，就不用担心心碎。

在外人看来，他是至高无上的伟大君王。
只有他才知道，自己的感情世界，一片空白。
高处不胜寒。

史书上记载的，有明君，亦有昏君。
只是，究竟有多少位君主，是被记载成有血有肉的生命体？
不能错，一失足则毁天下；他们的感情，他们的挣扎，有太多的被掩埋，流失在历史的长河中。

宫廷，表面上富丽堂皇，实际上却是最阴暗的地方。
口蜜腹剑、勾心斗角，太多太多……

“呵！若无情，若冷血，要这天下，又有何用？”仰天长啸。
为何，这秋雨下个不停？为何，短短的四十年不到，却感觉，仿佛已过千年？
为何，分明在回廊之中，却如入冰窟…不…自己何时，已来到这充斥着血腥杀气的冷雨当中？
“若有来世，只愿，不再生于帝王家！”霎时，眼前一黑。

瘁死。
“皇上驾崩！”

次日，太子即位。又一轮回。

Fustrated

2009-11-21T21:21:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow's GSC already......
Feels really ill-at-ease; so I did what I always do when I feel unsettled: Write some random stuff!

Below is what I came up with this time.
Hopefully you can tell that initially I meant it to be a poem XP:

Ghost of a whisper, faint as if unheard
Strangled cries, silent screams
Fury, towards this world
Like hurricane, threatening to engulf

Please stop telling me not to cry
Don't force me to bottle up everything
Not everyone can, be alright
Simply talking over their troubles and worries

Don't always tell me to be brave
To take care of others, to initiate
You seem to have forgotten, right from the start
I've once had, an immature heart

Is adulthood truly that great?
For everyone to wish me to grow up
If being mature, means to give up my true self
To hide all that I feel, I'd rather not

I don't want to be strong, be responsible for all
I would like more chances, to be by myself
So please, don't tell me not to cry
Just this time

Give me a chance, to be emotional
Just let the tears trinkle, unhindered
To let out all that's pented up within
Please see past all that illusion
Of what society turned me to be

Friend VS Friend

2009-11-02T20:11:00.000-08:00

Cannot really recall much, except that it was in Secondary 2, when I first encountered and fell in love with Gundam SEED, and subsequently Gundam SEED: Destiny. This saga ultimately drew me into the world of Anime.

I never knew what really infatuated me at that instant, but I am placing a guess that it is the storyline.

Friend VS Friend.

Childhood friends, growning up together, spliting up, reuniting 3 years later, only to find the other on enemy fields.
Dueling one another, against their will.

SEED, it gives one the sense of powerlessness. In the face of a changed world, so much, is not in an individual's control.

Then occured the climax. Kira killed Nicole; Athrun, Tolle.

Makes one wonder, which "friend" will the two of them choose. The first time, and probably the only time for Athrun,that the two of them went all out to kill one another. At that point, it was highly possible, or to many, even apparent, that their firendship is progressing to a heart-wretching dead end.

Then there was the relevation of Kira's identity as the Ultimate Coordinator, his battle with Le Creuset. There was this constant fear that he may follow the path of Treize(Gundam Wing).

Gratefully, SEED ended as a happy ending, at least to me. Kira and Athrn finally reunited, safe and sound, as friends.

Kira and Athrun. What really touched me was how their freindship prevailed through all.

Yet SEED gave me the impression that it was only Athrun who was working hard to keep their friendship together.
In SEED, Athrun first lost his mother to Bloody Valentine.
By defecting Zaft, he had to face up to the quarrel with his father, which ended up with him getting shot.
Because of GENESIS, he lost his father at the end of the SEED series.
By the end of SEED, he was the one who literally had no family left.
Despite all these, amongst the four main characters, Athrun is the one who really kept everything to himself (Cagalli cried on Kisaka, Lacus on Kira, Kira...there's just so many people avaliable)Guess that's what really made my heart go all out to him......
The only time that he ever showed his sorrow in front of others, from my perspective, was when he tried to self-destruct Justice Gundam in GENESIS.
It was, as if, he had given up on the world......

Kira...indeed, he had to take up the psychological burden of being the Ultimate Coordinator, to "save the world".
Yes, his biological parents, the Hibikis; but be reminded that he still has his twin sister Cagalli(and its not as if the Yamatos treated him badly)
But throughout the series...he was trying to protect all aboard the Archangel, all his frineds there.......
And when Athrun returned with an injured shoulder after confronting his father, how much concern did Kira show?
Throughout the series, it was always Athrun "mothering" Kira(even commenting to Cagalli that Kira loves to cry)...as if, Athrun needs Kira and doesn't want to lose him, but the feeling is not mutual......

That's why Destiny episode 43 was so appealing to me.
Finally! Kira showed some obvious concern to Athrun's well-being(after Athrun fainted in the Infinite Justice cockpit)
In SEED, Athrun was the more mature one between the duo(though I suppose he was forced to grow up; but does it matter?); Kira was the fragile type, ultra-sensitive and very easily hurt emotionally.
In Destiny, Kira appeared alot more mature (and to my dismay, alot more insensitive, at least towards Athrun); Athrun...he was not fragile or anything of that likes...just...Lost. Doesn't know what he wanted to achieve, unsure of what to do......

Many have commented that Destiny's plotline is a far cry from SEED, a shadow of its preceder. I am afraid that I must agree. The overall plotline of Destiny is indeed feeble. Nevertheless, with regard to the friendship between Kira and Athrun, SEED won't be complete without Destiny, and vice versa.
SEED displayed the challenge their friendship faced; Destiny provided an epilouge, a conclusion, on how their friendship evolved with time......

Kira Yamato...Athrun Zala......
KA不可逆！
So what if Kira is the crybaby? Athrun's the one that really needs taking care of!

郁闷

2009-11-02T20:03:00.000-08:00

昨天，（略）读了一遍《朱雀》（BY：卡门）

涅磐、重生。永恒、无奈。看完后，真的郁闷至极。凤凰梓童、青凰羽盈、彩凤丹莹…或许，甚至雪凤朝歌…经历各不相同，但却有着同一种悲哀。

他们的无奈，在于永生。长生不老，多少帝王的梦想？然而，真正永恒的生命，注定孤单。

凤凰，不死鸟；生命结束后，将会涅磐重生。

然而，可说讽刺的是，它（之所以用“它”，因为凤凰雌雄同体）却又是有感情的。永恒，足以让多少身边的人离它而去，让它有多少次失误的机会，容它犯下多少次不可弥补的错误？永无止境。

作为飞禽的一族之长，它又何曾能够随心所欲？曾经，可说是一意孤行过，可短短“一天”幸福的代价，却是全族的沦陷。

凤凰强大，可与强大的龙族抗衡；然而与之而来的，却是可称之为排山倒海的责任。

没有选择、唯有背负。

命运注定，一生的束缚……

朱雀子绯、朱雀彤。

其无奈，则更倾向于，追逐认可，却永远也抓不到自己想要的。

子绯，无可否认，它确实爱羽盈，也爱上了天寒。

但最终，羽盈却仍然下嫁龙族；嫁给了天寒。

挑起族长的担子，却无法胜任。

毕竟，朱雀在飞禽中地位、能力仅次于凤凰。“仅次”，却已相差不少。

彤，它用尽心思，不过是想获得如凤凰般的力量，得到大家对于“朱雀”作为一个独立体的认可。

然而，讽刺的是，“朱雀”的存在，本身就是凤凰的一部分，凤凰的一个别名。

天寒对它好，不是针对他“朱雀”。而是透过“朱雀”，看到凤凰的灵魂。

表凤凰，里朱雀。别人看到的，只能是凤凰。

无论怎么努力，它始终不可能与凤凰齐肩……

天帝常俊，青龙天寒……

对于凤凰的迷恋，是他们最大的错误。

常俊强横，遭到凤凰的拒绝，间接造就了他挑起一切纷争。

天寒太天真、不若其父果断，间接地加深了凤凰、朱雀的悲剧。

对龙族不太感冒，所以也不多写了……

整个故事，严格来说，没有哪个人是“错”，亦没有谁“对”。

错误的时局，不应相逢的身份，不该相交的命运……

种种种种，促成了这个错综复杂、环环相扣的阴谋时局……

或许，就因局势太过复杂，所以才会喜欢白虎冯这个家伙。

所有朱雀所接触的人物中，或许，唯有他，才能给彤其所想要的。

在冯眼里，彤就是彤；他不会一提到朱雀彤，就会将其与凤凰联系起来。

唯有白虎冯，在结局时，能将朱雀彤带离一切纷争，让它，有一个自我……

*笑*

以上一切，皆一时兴起所想。或许，还会再想…更多……

Post Promotional Examinations

2009-10-21T00:56:00.000-07:00

The week of slacking was officially over a long time ago. Yesterday the promos results started coming back.

How......I really don't know what am I going to do. My results are fried, grilled, burnt, "chiao tar", and charcoaled.
That bad.

MY MATHS FRIGGINGLY FAILED! TOTALLY! BY THE LOWEST CRITERIA!!!
What made it worse was that maths was the subject that I spent the most time revising!
I started off my revision well before the September holidays, and guess what? I FAILED!!!!!!!!!

Not only that, my CLL result's rather terrible too.
And GSC isn't much better. (What's more, we're taking GSC "A"-levels this Novermber; in a month!!!)

I dread to imagine what belays for my Chemistry, Biology and GP.

I don't regret; rather, I don't feel any regret for what I did before the Exam.
It's not as if I did not revise or was slacking when I was suppose to be revising.
In a sense that is worse, since that leaves less potential for me to make a drastic improvement, somehow.

I really don't know. How can I face up to my parents? To life?
"Oh, I practiced ever since the mid of term 3 and...*blah, blah, blah*...but I failed the promotional eaxms?"
As if any huamn will believe. That's just finding excuses.
The results are always what ultimately matters, isn't it.
At least, that's what the current world system is potraying, a hidden, but universally acknowledged fact.
Poor results=you didn't work hard enough=you're doomed

I'm so _____TIRED of this world.
Can the overhead bridge just collapse from underneath me on my way home......
Or is there any place where I can just disappear to and vanish from the world, erased from everyone's memories?

Yeah, yeah, I know I'm not suppose to think like these, I'm just a teenager, my thoughts have not matured enough to be able to always think rationally, I'm suppose to have a positive outlook on life yadayadayadayada......*throws arms overheard in exasperation*

Please, give me a breather and just let me fantasize...I guess I will no longer be able to do so once I've reached 21.

Promotional Exam reflections

2009-10-10T05:03:00.000-07:00

My personal reflections on Promotional Examinations 2009:

昨夜梦回dispersion force
p.d. Ea Hess's Law
锦瑟弦上说相思
sushi等于sotong ball
易安城，李子群
五棵柳树陋室铭
大江东去如G.P.
岳阳楼上想proteins

请参照苏轼《鹧鸪天》
I know some parts just don't sound right...but for the sake of the rhythmic pattern, just bear with it...LOLX

Genectrols: D-generation [Phase 2]

2009-09-20T21:07:00.000-07:00

Genectrols: D-generation [Phase 2]

Smothering. That is exactly how he felt, ever since he came to realize this world.
Who is he? What is he living for?
The most primitive memory he possessed, was of some “lid” being lifted away from him, then a blinding white light surrounding him.
Medical murmurs rose all around, excited gibbers he could not comprehend.
Then he found himself in a room. A simple, small, plain white cube, just four walls, a ceiling, and a cushioned floor, nothing else.
A place, devoid of life.
Then he was given his name, via a mechanical voice. Night Canyon.
He knew it’s wrong, somehow, deep within himself, yet he could never place a finger to it.
The only things inked into his mind were fragments of information, skills.
How to pilot an Assault Unit, how to kill, how to avoid getting killed.
Just “how”, never “why”.

Enclosed in the confinement, he lost sense of time. Injections at certain intervals were his only gauge.
Then one day, a door appeared. He walked towards it. He wanted, out.
Behind the door laid a long tunnel. No other choice.
At the end of the tunnel was no light.
There it stood, tall and regal, a glamorous A.U.
As if on instinct, he reached for the cockpit. Climb in, start the system, launch into battle.
Kill.
Return.
He never knew why he always returned to the oppressing place. Maybe, he just did not know of anywhere else.
Slowly, the whole thing became a routine.
He could feel that there is life around him; there always is.
Yes he could never reach them, see them.
When he was piloting, there was never any communication with other units. They were just tools, following a central command.

All changed when one day, his unit accidentally, by unknown means, captured some signals from nearby. Then, he began to LEARN.
In battle, he slowly learnt of this strange and intimidating world from the stray signal floating all around them.
He came to know, that he was merely a clone.
As all of them, the pilots on their side, are.
The world is roughly split into ten “planets”.
His “planet” was Helluw, Vena.
He came to know, bits and pieces of the A.F. history, of the last Universal war, a full-blown wave of destruction that wreaked all ten planets.
That was all he could gather, but he rendered that these information were enough.

That was why, when he was ordered to infiltrate the Errian Space to face two units, he was not the least bit worry.
He knew them to be royalty. He though they had little in-battle experience.
That was why he was so shocked, when they were on par with him, even having a little edge.
“Hmm…these two…Their skills are not bad! Fact! They’re really coordinated!” Just like them…Hope…and Faith…twins……
He had no idea why is it these two units that popped into his mind……
As if, it is something buried in the depths of his memory, so deep, he could no longer recall.
“No! Concentrate! Don’t let these things affect you!” He did not know why the name Kranyon suddenly appeared in his mind, just like the units Hope and Faith……
As if, a lost part of himself, a forgotten past, slowly piecing itself together.

“Bring out all that you have! I’m ready to take whatever you throw at me!”
He readied the chest cannon of his A.U.—Leo.
Just as it was about to blast at the sliver unit, his A.U. was violently rocked by several beams from a unexpected sources.
“Ah……”
Two other units, one blue, one bronze, joined in the fray.
Unexpected situation. He was at a loss. To retreat or to stay?

“Those two new arrivals…they don’t look like they’re from Erra…Incoming transmission?...again?” He pressed down on the accept button on the touch-screen. Where else can the signal be from other than the central command?
Thus his shock when he saw a strange face gradually appear on the screen.
“Unknown unit…You! You look familiar!......”
“Kranyon Taruk?” He blurted out the name that kept on showing itself in his mind. He already had a guess on what happened. All he needs is a confirmation.
“Yes…but……”
“No…”his fear realized, he gritted his teeth. “No! That’s not me! I’m just his clone!”
“Remember, I am Night Canyon, pilot of Leo A.U.” He didn’t care if the communication was already cut off. He just wanted to reassure himself, that he is an independent individual, not someone else.
Activating the beam sabre fixed on his A.U.’s “wrists”, he charged toward the others. The bronze unit came against him.

Sparks flew as their melee weapons collided, only extinguished too quickly by the vacuum of space.
Seeing no possibility in completing his mission, he fled out into open space.
He had to go back, to Vena Helluw…no matter how reluctant……
He fears to return, yet he could find nowhere else to go……

假期快结束时的无聊之作

2009-09-10T00:05:00.000-07:00

星期四了。快了。假期马上就完了。接下来就是升学考试了。
不知道为什么，昨天突然一时兴起，去查了下李煜这个人，于是有感而发……

李煜，南唐后主，词帝。
只叹，他错生帝王家。
看到评论，皆是说他只适合做一个词人，不适合作皇帝。
是啊，该杀的留，该赦者杀。
如此帝王，唯有亡国。
也有称，是他作为帝王的悲剧，造就了他词坛上的地位。无可否认。
在此，我不想揣测他的想法。
只是觉得，李煜这个人，特别复杂。
真正的文人，应该是学不会勾心斗角的，因为只有这样，他才能够潜心研究文学的真谛。
然而，作为一个集权的统治者，一个帝王，胸无城府，要怎样驾驭大权？
况且，生长在深宫之中，对外界，又能有多了解？
要知道，世间，人人都在觊觎那个宝座。
太平盛世还好，偏偏他接的又是南唐这个烂摊子。
即位时，南唐已成为了宋的附属国。
换作别人，又会如何？又能如何？
终是难逃一死。宋朝皇帝不可能放过他。
潜心文学？文学源自生活，生活则与政治脱不了干系。
要从鸡蛋里挑骨头不难；实在挑不出，大不了放根骨头进去。
哪怕，他再无心于政治。身份，不允。
总觉得，他的人生，很无奈。
国，注定要亡。势力差距太悬殊了。
身不由己，只因，命运的作弄。
有时，最可怕的，是知道事情即将发生，却无力阻止……

（插花：能跟得上我跳跃性极强的思维者，世上，又有几人？！*叹*）

总觉得，作个君王，也蛮无奈的。做什么事，一举一动，历史都在监视着；做什么，都要考虑到皇家颜面、身份问题等等等等一大串问题，时时刻刻要堤防着明抢暗箭…最重要的是，不是你想不想做的问题，往往也不顾你愿不愿意做，那顶帽子就扣下来了，然后你就得干这行干一辈子，跳槽=妄想……
有些人，为了帝位耍尽手段，却一辈子也没能与其沾上边……
有些人，无心天下、江山，却偏偏成了九五至尊……

《乌夜啼》
【南唐】李煜
林花谢了春红，太匆匆，无奈朝来寒雨晚来风。
胭脂泪，相留醉，几时重，自是人生长恨水长东。

人生长恨水长东…人生长恨水长东…人生长恨水长东……
PS: 李煜他和赵匡胤、赵光义（匡义）兄弟还真是剪不断、理还乱啊啊啊啊啊！

然后通过“命运爱作弄人”，又联想到三国。
人人都记得那灼红了半壁长江的赤壁之战…又有谁，会知道多年前，江东的故事？
孙郎周郎。孙郎，非辛弃疾笔下的那个孙仲谋；是孙权他哥，孙伯符，小霸王孙策。
平江东六郡，开创东吴霸业，为日后三国中鼎立一方的孙吴奠定基础……
和大多数人不同，我不是通过周瑜才认识到孙策。
一开始接触三国，目光就被他所吸引。或许，只是因为他年少吧？还是，直觉？很多年前的事了，也不记得，当初为何如此。
《三国演义》，埋没了他。其中的他，不过是一个小小的配角。二十六年，不过是漫长的三国时代的一瞬。连周瑜这个赤壁的主将、曹操这个乱世奸雄都因作者偏袒“蜀”而沦为奸诈小人，又怎能指望……
没有他，就没有后来的江东，这是必然。
历史上，如他这般才貌双备，文武具全，少年成名的人本就少之又少…虽说红颜多薄命，名将不让见白头…但二十六岁就“仙逝”未免也太早了吧！又怎能叫人不心痛…不郁闷……
相较周瑜，孙策留给人的，更多的是一种遗憾，一种朦胧……
美姿颜，善笑语……

太多的倘若…历史所留下的，有太多的遗憾……

PS: 别给我提起《三国无双》里的那个…我拒绝承认他是伯符*自我催眠中，碎碎念ing……*
《三国演义》电视剧里的也那个也让我恶寒……
《火凤燎原》里的那只小雀斑还好些，虽然离我心目中的形象还有好些距离……

Hectic week

2009-08-30T08:27:00.000-07:00

As the title says...the whole week was spent chiong-ing stuff......
Seriously, after entering HC, which week is not hectic?
But still, felt a great sense of accomplishment this week.
Finally over with EoM!
Relieved.

Didn't really observe people that much this week, so, mental note...must buck up on people-watching next week^^

Bearbear, to say the truth, I'll miss teasing you next week. ToT
But don't worry, meanwhile ah-ma will be a good substitute^^ as she had once done before^^
Especially tomorrow. Teachers' Day celebration^^ must OBSERVE Muahahaha*attempts evil laugh but epic failure*

So, today?
In the morning I brought my sister to watch UP (3D)...LOLX...leave a msg in the tagboard if you want spoilers.
If you happen to be in my group for PW, don't start nagging at me about work=_=!!!
I promised my sister, and "siblings" comes before "work", "promise" comes before "schoolwork"...x_x......
We had lunch together...Macs......

My afternoon was spent rushing out schoolwork...managed to complete:
the 2 CLL assignments
Bio virus tutorial
1/2 of Chem Intro to Organics tutorial.......

Yeah, yeah, very unproductive, I know......
Hopefully tomorrow after going back to NY with HS (if everything goes according to plan, which usually doesn't happen), I hope I can spped up things a little and hopefully finished all my (accumulated) work (highly unlikely, but, ah well, will have to try to do so someday...XP)
GAH! PW! you are the 罪魁祸首!(Cos for the most part of these few weeks I was so focused on my (#$#$%^#$@) EoM I neglected tons of other work.)

Evening today was spent on listening to MV......
Sometimes I seriously surprise myself...I've got so much work piled up there and I still have the mood to listen to music (and type this post) +_+!!!

On a lighter note...I (think I) have found my favorite artist for Chinese songs......
As I've mentioned before, for English songs I love those by Within Temptations......
For Chinese songs I've just realized that I love 心然's songs......

especially today, an MV's accompanying song:
《子陵·周郎顾》*狼嗥*

乍看之下，有种穿越的感觉
再仔细听：
弹指樯橹破，忆，千年竟如昨……
大江东去千古浪淘过……
《念奴娇·赤壁怀古》啊啊啊！！！！

只可惜，她唱的歌有点太少了ToT......

PS: 我还没开始mug《念奴娇》

PSS:JQ, 教师节录像的话稿就这么定下了吧？*smiles innocently*

Genectrols: D-generation [Phase 1]

2009-08-23T07:59:00.000-07:00

In the year of the future, the era of Anno Futurus (A.F.), the universe is split into 10 territories.
10 “planets”, independent yet interdependent.
Erra, Isli, Helluw, Mavayu, Ducan, Zakab, Tahale, Vale, Yuva…and last but not least, the one planet once known as Earth, now Gaia.
The universe is no longer as it used to be in the A.D.s, now that humans have transformed it to their likings, as they had to the landscapes of Gaia millions of years ago.
A.F. 960, and the curtains part.

Errian outer space.
Two titanic, robotic humanoid mechas, one gold and the other silver, roamed through the pitch darkness, occasionally lit by one or two stray stars.
Assault Units(A.U.) they are called. Capricorn and Scorpio; these two are customized units.

In the cockpit of the silver unit, Scorpio A.U.
A blonde girl sighed softly, her alabaster skin ghostly in the pale mechanical light that flooded the small compartment, as she gingerly fingered the controls.
Within moments, a screen gradually faded into view, partially blocking the initial scene of her A.U.’s surroundings displayed in front of her.
Within the screen was shown the interior of the golden unit’s cockpit.

The pilot of said unit is a boy, with features strikingly similar to that of the girl. Through the transparent face-shield of his helmet, one can see much of his unruly fringe.
Prince of Erra, Kelar Rupika Josa.

“Phoebe CIII?” His voice rang aloud in the constricted area within the cockpit, seemingly resonating from everywhere.
She appeared not to have heard him.
“Phoebe CIII?”
“Yes, I’m listening.”
“Great. I don’t have to resort to my normal way of addressing you.” His flat tone made it hard to guess if he meant that as sarcasm or complement. She simply shrugged it off.
The blonde girl is no other than Kelar’s twin sister, Princess of Erra, Asuna Saiveinne Josa, codename Phoebe CIII (codename is a name they use when in battle or piloting, to lessen the chance of their enemies knowing their true identity via interception of signals).
“Look, if you’re going to ask me if we’re at the right place, then don’t, because I can assure you that we are. Seriously, you are the one who inherited mother’s bad direction sense, not me. Don’t even try to deny it.”
“I know. My navigation system tells me we’re at the right place too…I’m just wondering if you know why the both of us are up here and all alone?” Should they not the well-sheltered ones, kept as away from all possible forms of potential danger as humanely possible, especially seeing that they have no other siblings?
“Because this is a very safe territory, well within the Errian space, and the person we are welcoming is our cousin? Really, he’s late! He is so going to……”
“Phoebe, is it just going to be L…I mean, Raine 103? I remember there is going to be two units?”
“Neither do I know what the other units is about, but probably just an escort……”

So engrossed were the twins in their conversation, they overlooked the danger lurking nearby.
That is, only until the Capricorn A.U. (golden unit) rang red alert.
“Argh!” Kelar had just managed to activate his unit’s lazer shield in time to save himself from being evaporated by the super-heated beam aimed at him.
Scorpio A.U., being the more fortunate one, had slightly more time to react, allowing Asuna to activate its “Wings”, increasing the unit’s maneuverability and speed.
“Bro! Watch out!”
This time the Capricorn had only narrowly dodged another beam fired overhead.
“Whew! That was close.”
Now they had a clearer view of the attacking unit. A pastel-green and scarlet A.U. Definitely not of any planets they are familiar with. Asuna evaded another beam with her lazer shield.
“You managed to contact him?” She heard her brother’s voice over the “screen”. No longer that clear, but still audible.
“Nope. Not replying.” She had already sent out several signals, enquiring on the unit’s identity. Yet none got any reply. “Oh, why are we so unlucky?! This is, after all, our first flight alone!”
“Phoebe, cover me while I activate Capricorn’s “Wings”!”
“Phoebe CIII here. Got you, Phoebus!” His codename is Phoebus CXV.
“Capricorn, lets’ go! Phoebe, I’ll keep the front busy, try and get to its back!”
“Gotit. Arh! This one is a heavily-armed unit.”
“I know. It’s really fast. Man is this guy strong! He’s taking on both of us and winning!”
Asuna could not bother to rebut her brother’s assumption of the other pilot’s gender. They could barely keep up with this unit.
Then, just as suddenly as this unit had approached them, another beam blasted into the trio’s combat.
“Not another unit!”
“Don’t worry, they’re on our side.”
“Yo! Phoebus CXV, Phoebe CIII, having fun?”
“You people alright?”
“Raine 103!”
“Death Saint! What brings you here?!”

I seriously don't understand myself...technically I should be sleeping now...but I wanted to post this story...so here it is^^...LOLX

Birthday soon (and some recaps)

2009-08-15T04:02:00.000-07:00

Expect this post to be random

...It's going to be my Birthday soon...VERY soon......
*Sighs* will be one more year older......
I feel _____old!!!

So next week Monday there's CLL (Chinese Language and Literature) test
Thurs there's Chmistry SPA(School-based Practical Assessment; A-level)
Sighs...what an "enjoyable" week......

Plus I have yet to customize this blog (blog-skin design in progress)......

I am so royally __________(fill in at your own discretion)......

This Tues=nightmare
First we had softball for PE......
I've got nothing against the sport itself...it's just the arena(field) that I ABSOLUTELY DETEST!!!!!!
GRASS!!!I HATE GRASS!!! PERIOD!
But that's bearable...
Compared to our (fairly screwed-up) Biology SPA that followed right after PE =_=......
I stained my paper with the one of the chemicals used!!!>.<

Seriously, how slack can one get when A-levels is approaching one's doorstep?

1st post

2009-08-07T20:12:00.000-07:00

Whooo!!!!*Cheers*
My first post(for this blog)......
I'll start off with the K-box session yesterday......

First of all, WHY DO THEY HAVE SUCH A LIMITED RANGE OF SONGS TO CHOOSE FROM!!!!!!
《故人叹》《千年缘》《仙剑问情》《相思泪》(the version I wanted)《长衣袖》《昙花痛》, and English-wise, all the songs by "Within Temptations"...*sobs* NONE OF THEM!!!!!!!......

Next, I realised, YC, you'll have trouble holding ur title as the most earplug-demanding singer in our class(as I stated in class blog)...你的歌声再___（自定义）也不过是“毁歌不倦”，而我的已是到了“魔音震耳（I know it's suppose to be "灌耳","震耳"是升级版），绕梁三日”的地步了……

Finally, end of post.
All in all, the who session was a craze...a chance to momentarily let go of everything and go lunatic......LOLX
^^