The week of slacking was officially over a long time ago. Yesterday the promos results started coming back.
How......I really don't know what am I going to do. My results are fried, grilled, burnt, "chiao tar", and charcoaled.
That bad.
MY MATHS FRIGGINGLY FAILED! TOTALLY! BY THE LOWEST CRITERIA!!!
What made it worse was that maths was the subject that I spent the most time revising!
I started off my revision well before the September holidays, and guess what? I FAILED!!!!!!!!!
Not only that, my CLL result's rather terrible too.
And GSC isn't much better. (What's more, we're taking GSC "A"-levels this Novermber; in a month!!!)
I dread to imagine what belays for my Chemistry, Biology and GP.
I don't regret; rather, I don't feel any regret for what I did before the Exam.
It's not as if I did not revise or was slacking when I was suppose to be revising.
In a sense that is worse, since that leaves less potential for me to make a drastic improvement, somehow.
I really don't know. How can I face up to my parents? To life?
"Oh, I practiced ever since the mid of term 3 and...*blah, blah, blah*...but I failed the promotional eaxms?"
As if any huamn will believe. That's just finding excuses.
The results are always what ultimately matters, isn't it.
At least, that's what the current world system is potraying, a hidden, but universally acknowledged fact.
Poor results=you didn't work hard enough=you're doomed
I'm so _____TIRED of this world.
Can the overhead bridge just collapse from underneath me on my way home......
Or is there any place where I can just disappear to and vanish from the world, erased from everyone's memories?
Yeah, yeah, I know I'm not suppose to think like these, I'm just a teenager, my thoughts have not matured enough to be able to always think rationally, I'm suppose to have a positive outlook on life yadayadayadayada......*throws arms overheard in exasperation*
Please, give me a breather and just let me fantasize...I guess I will no longer be able to do so once I've reached 21.
Labels: examination, post-promos, reflections
